Warded to the Lily.

We need to talk. Really talk. I'm so sorry love. I am so sorry. It was like... a switch or something that had been flipped. I know I shouldn't have run off as soon as we got to Andie's but I needed to beat the shit out of Gaius to see that I was fixed. And I realized that I am.

I'm at that old house on my parent's property that we never used. It's well warded but if you want to come back to Andie's I will. I left-- I dropped Sirius's ashes in the field trying to get to you, and I lost my dad's pocket watch too. Thought about going to try and find them but I don't want to be stupid. I never want to lose you again.

And I want to hold Harry. I can't believe we have a son.

Private to the Order minus Remus.

I know that no one's going to trust me anytime soon, but I'm back, I swear. I can't even begin to say how sorry I am, but I will swear it on my life that I never game them any names or information. Right now I'll stay away from everyone till we can figure out some way to make sure I'm harmless. You can give me veritaserum if you want or anything.

I've got information though I'd like to get passed around. I know the rehabilitation centre in and out, and my uncle's house as well. Whatever I can help with, let me know, and for fuck's sake it needs to be said... I've missed being me.

Private to Severus.

I'm out.

Private to Sirius.

I lost your ashes. If they aren't floating around in the wind somehow I'll figure out a way to get them back.

I miss you. But I'm better now, and I think that's probably what you'd have really wanted. Wish you could be here.