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Tweak says, "I think I love you"

James Potter doesn't want to talk about it. (jamesopotter) wrote,
@ 2009-08-10 11:10:00

Private to Severus and Gaius.

I want to practice dueling tonight. I think I can finally manage it properly. Uncle Charlus is going to work with me this afternoon but I want to hold on to this feeling. Hell, if you're both busy I'll ask Demetrius or Lestrange. The less dead one obviously. Anyone.

~~I want to hurt something.~~

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	excelsior 2009-08-10 04:44 pm UTC (link)
	I will help you. I would rather you not run off to ask either of them. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-10 04:53 pm UTC (link)
	You're too nice though. I want to really practice. Practice like I intended using the spells on someone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	excelsior 2009-08-10 04:55 pm UTC (link)
	Why would you want to do that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-10 04:57 pm UTC (link)
	You won't like the truth. And if I tell you and you don't try to stop me you might get in trouble. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	excelsior 2009-08-10 05:02 pm UTC (link)
	If you are that concerned about it, I suggest you refrain. I would not want you to get in trouble for any reason. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-10 05:05 pm UTC (link)
	Practice with me? I promise that if I do do something stupid I'll be very, very secretive about it. No one will know it's me. Please? I know Uncle Charlus already thinks you're aces but if you're the one who actually manages to help me cast a crucio he'll probably be adding you into his will or something. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	fortiscadere 2009-08-10 05:11 pm UTC (link)
	It seems as if you've already got a partner, but I am available if you're up for round two. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-10 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks. I'll take you up on that. Severus. Think you can manage tonight as well, after Gaius leaves? I get the feeling he's not going to want to really practice with me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	James. fortiscadere 2009-08-10 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	I could manage tonight as well, I think. I could use the practise. Question, do you want me to hold back or not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. jamesopotter 2009-08-10 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	Uncle Charlus would be cross if I got myself killed, but short of that is fine. I won't be holding back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	James. fortiscadere 2009-08-10 06:10 pm UTC (link)
	Good. Then neither will I. I think we can both learn something from that, actually. ~~Lil~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	James. fortiscadere 2009-08-10 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	If I successfully help you cast a crucio will your Uncle add me in his will? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. jamesopotter 2009-08-10 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	Help me manage one and I'll add you to my will. Bellatrix Lestrange is going to pay for what she did to Sirius, and don't try to talk me out of it. I'm going to finish what he started. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	James. fortiscadere 2009-08-10 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	Really? Oh, well, if we're out to hurt Bellatrix Lestrange, by all means. She is driving me positively nutters right now. You will learn a cruciatus before the night is through. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. jamesopotter 2009-08-10 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't think I had it in me to feel this much hate. Sirius told me that's what it would take. Like the opposite of how I make my patronus. Find something so dark that it scares you and shoot it out your wand. I want to hear her screaming. I want to see her dead. I think whatever my Uncle had hoped for is working. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

James.

fortiscadere
2009-08-10 06:45 pm UTC (link)

You've just got to be able to channel it into a curse. If you've got the hate you can do the curse. It's hard to mean it without that. I think the good news is that if you've done it once, you don't have to have the hate all the time - you just draw on what you had once.

Bellatrix wants Lily dead too. I know she's not Sirius, but it didn't seem like you wanted her dead, so maybe that will give you some extra fuel. ~~I don't know how much longer I'm going to protect h~~

Can you cast a patronus?

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Severus.

jamesopotter
2009-08-10 06:48 pm UTC (link)

I've got more than enough hatred for her. It makes it hurt to breathe just thinking about her.

And if she wants Lily dead it means she'll end up killing Harry too, and it's not happening. It's not.

And yeah. It's not that hard really. If you've got a soul anyway. It's sort of funny watching Uncle Charlus try, but he was really impressed with mine. I can show you tonight if you want. He won't be watching if we make it late.

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James.

fortiscadere
2009-08-10 06:51 pm UTC (link)

We'll get a cruciatus out of you tonight then. If you've got that much - you might be able to manage a killing curse as well.

Yeah, no, if she got her hand on one of them, she'd get her hands on both of them. I don't know if she'll try to- I don't know what they're going to do, but if you need help on that one you know where I am.

I don't know if I have a soul or not, but I think I'd like to try it if you don't mind showing me.

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	Severus. jamesopotter 2009-08-10 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not I'm not really sure I'm ready for that yet. But I will be. Crucioing first seems like a reasonable goal. And no, I don't mind. Just think about a good memory to use for tonight. It doesn't necessarily need to be happy but it needs to be... well, it's hard to describe. Something that makes your stomach flip in the good way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	James. fortiscadere 2009-08-10 07:14 pm UTC (link)
	Well, step one, then step two. Right. I'll think about it and try to come up with something. See you tonight then. (Reply to this) (Parent)