InsaneJournal

Tweak says, "Happy Halloween!"

James Potter doesn't want to talk about it. (jamesopotter) wrote,
@ 2009-08-02 22:48:00

Lily.

I can't do this.

(Post a new comment)

	persisting 2009-08-03 03:02 am UTC (link)
	I wish you didn't have to. I don't know what to say because saying I'm sorry seems so bloody trite right now. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 03:06 am UTC (link)
	I told him. I didn't want to tell him. He kept asking and everyone kept asking and I told him and he must have said something. He told. He said something and now he's dead. It's my fault. They killed Marlene because of me and now Sirius. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	persisting 2009-08-03 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Told him what? We can't stop whatever is happening if you don't tell me what's going on. Rodolphus Lestrange killed Marlene, James, and Death Eaters got Sirius. We'll find out which one, I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 03:40 am UTC (link)
	Told him what happened. That night. I told him and then they killed him. Rodolphus killed Marlene because she knew. Lily, I know you think I'm crazy, but I'm not. And they said you were in on it, and it made so much sense and my arm hurt. I can't breathe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

persisting
2009-08-03 03:51 am UTC (link)

I think Bellatrix did it.

He killed her because he's been after her family for over a year, and because she exposed all of their balogna on RR. You KNOW this. You know how bloody terrified of him she was and it's because of him that she's dead. Not any Order conspiracy, because he broke into their house while they were sleeping.

Why would any of us be in on anything that would make you you hate us?

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 03:54 am UTC (link)
	I don't know. Why would you take me their in the first place when they were going to hurt me and threaten Sirius? Why? I SAW IT LILY. I know Peter gave them my name, and Remus came back to you and I didn't! What am I supposed to think? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

persisting
2009-08-03 04:07 am UTC (link)

I didn't! James, when have I even left the HOUSE in weeks? We tried to get you OUT of there. Did Travers ever mention the Rehab centre needing repairs? It's because we were trying to break you out.

Remus practically bled to death trying to get Sirius back here in time. They don't know if he's going to make it either.

...Maybe Peter did. Maybe they gave him Veritaserum, he was in there before you were. I don't want to believe it but it wouldn't be his fault.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jamesopotter
2009-08-03 04:10 am UTC (link)

I hope he dies.

He was IN ON IT, LILY. He took me to the rehabilitation centre, and then he let the wards down so Lestrange could kill Marlene, and now he's trying to make it look like Sirius was killed when he probably TOOK HIM STRAIGHT TO BELLATRIX.

Please Lily. You have to believe me. Please. I don't know--

I don't have anyone else now. I know I said awful things, and I meant them, and you have no reason to trust me, but please, I swear I'm telling you the truth. They're IN THE ORDER. If you have Harry near them you need to get him away. You don't have to tell me where you're going, just go. I can get you money. Or tickets.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

persisting
2009-08-03 04:19 am UTC (link)

You shut your mouth. He is one of your best friends whether you remember it or not.

They also told you Marlene was in on it, and that I was. They probably would've told you Sirius was too if they thought you'd believe it for a second. What makes you think that they didn't do something to make you think Remus was the one doing it? I've seen him, James; you haven't seen what he's been like.

I don't need money, James, i need my husband back. I need my friends to stop DYING and to not be alone anymore.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 01:37 pm UTC (link)
	Here's how I know you're in on it. The Lily I thought I loved would believe me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

persisting
2009-08-03 04:43 pm UTC (link)

Rationalize for me again why I would be a part of something that would make you hate me for being muggleborn, because I don't GET IT. If the Lily you thought you loved would believe you when you were making wild accusations against people who would die to protect you, then I don't know who you were in love with because it wasn't me.

I believe that that's what you honestly believe happened. I do, I swear.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 05:22 pm UTC (link)
	You always believed me when it was important. I don't know what else to say. I don't know. I don't know why Gaius would lie. I don't know why I saw what I saw. I don't know who I'm protecting anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	persisting 2009-08-03 05:35 pm UTC (link)
	It would be nice if you could return the favour. When have I ever lied to you, James? What makes Gaius Travers this beacon of truthfulness all of a sudden? You should be here protecting your son and not there helping the death eaters prove their point. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. I have to go. Uncle Charles expects me for lessons. I still want to see Harry. I know-- Without Sirius you might say no, and Remus CAN NOT BE INVOLVED, but I want to hold him. This picture isn't enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	persisting 2009-08-03 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	JAMES, will you LISTEN to yourself? EVERY TIME you start actually thinking, your Uncle Charlus pulls you away. Why do you think that is? Why are you okay with that? I want to see you, and I want you to see him. I'm not coming alone, though, not with Harry. Who could I bring? Who would you be alright with? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jamesopotter 2009-08-03 05:46 pm UTC (link)
	If I don't go he'll be angry. I don't know how he knows. Maybe the elves. I thought they were my friends, maybe not. I don't know. Andromeda. I trust her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	persisting 2009-08-03 05:58 pm UTC (link)
	The house elves will obey their master a million times over someone who is their new friend. Andromeda then. I'll ask her. (Reply to this) (Parent)